Well, today went to hell in a hand basket. My supervisor had scheduled to have a 'conference' with me. She actually came up to the office on her remote day for this conference. Yeah, it was one of those meetings and it turned into one of those days.
The conference started out asking me how I was doing and if I was feeling better. How routing was going, etc. Then she says, "It was brought to my attention that there was an incident that occurred yesterday and then explained about what she was told. My new worker had gone to my supervisor after she had given me her LE letters to mail. They had actually had a meeting and were in the conference room. She told her that I was unprofessional and that I had lost my cool with her. 😵 Excuse me? How in the world is asking what all the extra paperwork is unprofessional? How is saying I wish people would tell me when things change unprofessional? This is my job!!! If changes are made, I need to be aware of them so I am not doing my job incorrect!! WTH! I asked my supervisor if this was coming from my PA, and she said no, that it was coming from her. So, I sat there and explained how that 'incident' went, and mind you, my other supervisor was right there speaking to both of us when this took place. So, during this so called conference, I was enlightened on how we all need to work as a team and help each other, etc., etc. I was enlightened on my conduct. I was enlightened on how being stressed can cause irritability and mood changes. After my supervisor had her say, I told her that I have been stressed
out lately, which is probably why I can't get well as fast. So, I laid it all out. I was so angry on the inside. I told her about my daughter and what has been going on for months. I told her about my husband. Yes, things have been hard at home. Yes, things are tight. And yes, it has been hard juggling what is happening in my personal life and at work. But I do it. I still work, even when I am not feeling well. I have never been unprofessional at work. I have always worked as a team player. The problem with team playing is that everyone needs to be on the same page. It's called Teamwork for a reason and the only way it runs smoothly is when we all know what is going on. If changes have been made then we ALL need to be made aware and trained the same way. But I am always trying to help out when needed, probably more so than any of the other admins. And yes, I do perform tasks that they do not. I am the one that makes the routing logs every month. I am the one in charge of the On-Call schedule that has to be kept updated, not only the paper copy, but in IMPACT as well. It is time consuming and when other admins decide they want to take off during crucial days like their routing week, it causes the back up router to have to stop what they are doing, stepping in to fill that role since they are out. When you have two admins take leave, that makes it even more difficult, as their duties have to be covered, too. At one point during the week, I was the only Tarrant county admin working, and that is just not fair. Honestly, things have not run smoothly for over a year, when the other
two admins left. My team knew everything and we worked so well together.
I miss them.
I was told that she understands that I have not been feeling well and I appeared to be stressed. She then brought up FMLA. She asked me if I had thought about taking leave. I have the hours. She had to at one time herself take leave. She also gave me a brochure for our EAP program. Geez. By the end of this 'conference' I was definitely not feeling it. Especially when I was presented with a paper that I had to sign stating that we had this meeting and what was talked about. Oh, I signed it. Against my better judgment, I probably shouldn't have. I feel now like by signing it, I was agreeing that I was in the wrong and I was not. I don't feel like this should have even taken place. I have had nothing but praise since I started this job. I have gotten two merit bonuses in the time that I have been working here. Call it what you will, but I just got written up for the first time in my adult life for something that I feel just didn't happen. 😟
